The Distorted Self – perils of aggression,low self esteem and anhedonia

And I talked to her finally… 

“I appraise ,criticise and understand the events ,relationships,situations and problems quite well until and unless they stand out of myself. Once they try to penetrate the boundary, at that point I feel amalgamation of facts and features…. I feel blurred effect of the true evidences… I see distorted, biased ends and that confuses me. I am not able to resolve it. Is this a convuolution of myself or the foreign material? Am I disturb? Do I need help? Should I seek help? ”